Weep little lion man...

Guuuuuyyyy!

I'll post more photos of the Grad Show later. I cannot be bothered right now.
it's 10pm and still 40c.
That's freaking hot.

Poor Guy is at work, in a uniform. I'm barely functioning under and next to a fan.

Oh summer, how we forgot just how hot you can be.
It's not even summer yet! It's going to be a hot one, kids.

Speaking of hot weather and the complete opposite..I'm booking my ticket to NY next week. Or the week after; I'll see how my finances are after Christmas Shopping. Boo. Hiss.

Alright. I need more water.

Dum dum dum

Our Grad Show opens tonight.

Exciting? Kind of.

I had my assessment yesterday and it went really well. A little too well.
Meh.

I don't think it will feel complete until tomorrow morning.
I'm glad I'm doing Honours next year because right now I feel really lost and pointless. I wouldn't know what to do if I had to go out into that big, scary world in January and be an adult. No way.

Going to get ready now. Yay.

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I wanna get myself out of this bed...

Arrghh.

Today was kind of epic. I went with Dad to his Uncle Sid's funeral, then we went to uni to pick up my prints and then to Botany to have them mounted.
Non. Stop.

I'm kind of in love with my prints. I don't think I measured them properly because 70cm high is actually a lot bigger than I thought it would be. But they look amazing. I just..wow.

Now I just need to finish this sound piece. I have no motivation for it at all.
Ugh.

Monday night I went to the acoustic Benji & Joel Madden show.
Yeah. I love them. I have made peace with the fact that some people will recognise the first note of a Led Zeppelin or The Cure song, and I will forever know every note and beat of every Good Charlotte song.
They hold that special place in my heart =]

It was SO much fun. I just laughed the whole night. It was good fun catching up with Lorren and Amanda, too. I met Amanda's friend Georgie who does photography at COFA so we're going to hang out at each others Grad shows, ha. Small world.

I should go look up native birds to Kurnell. Sigh. I wish Merilyn would come through on her desire to take my sound piece and do it for me!

I leave you with this...



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I was expecting the whole sound editing thing to be a lot more complicated.
Of course, for all I know the sound piece could actually suck. Sigh. It's kind of annoying how I need to go all the way into SCA to let Merilyn listen, but I'd rather do that than put up crappy work.

I feel kind of sick. Like I have a huge knot in my stomach =[
It may have been the yoghurt I ate tonight. I don't think it was all that good. Ew.

Bed time. I'm too old for all these late nights.

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Illuminate the no on their vacancy signs...

Today has been the most frustrating day.

I wish I could have stayed home and read my book all day.

On the bright side, I have accomplished a lot.
- Studio theory completely done (Guy, you just need to print your CV tomorrow).
- Honours proposal done.
- Major works edited.
- Test prints submitted.

I'm just waiting for Dad to pick me up and we'll go to the mounting shops.

Training has been canceled for this evening. Annoying.
I'll go home after we've been to the mounting places instead of going to Dads. That way I can get more work done. I feel horrible though...I worry Dad thinks I only go out to his place when I have to.
Argh.
Like I said, frustrating.

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Two of the images that will be in my major assessment.

Im going to the mounting shop on tuesday to get a quote. I'm scared. I'm taking Dad with me in the hope that he hears how much this is all costing me and offers to pay for half/most of it =]
Worst. Daughter. Ever.

Sleeping Sickness

I need a whole day or two during the holidays to clean my room!
It's disgusting. I should be ashamed of myself.

What I really need is for Mum to stop talking about turning the spare room into my study/studio space and get craking on it. I don't mind doing all the work, she just needs to make up her mind.

I'm making a shopping list for B&H Photo. Oh New York, how I cannot wait to see you again =]

I hand in my final essay for 3rd year tomorrow and I am done. All that's left is my major work for the grad show/assessment, and to hand in my Honours proposal. Gah.

Number ninety five...

Extension. You kill me.

But at least my images are all approved and ready to print. Now I just have to finish my stoopid video. Why did I ever agree to do a video? Why!!??

Anyway.

Merilyn's meeting soon.
Faaar ooout.

Honours...

Do I write the 4000 word essay and have the focus be on my studio practice, or do I write the 12 - 15,000 word essay and less focus on my studio work?

Tanya says more writing, Merilyn says more photos...What will Anne say?

Arrghh!

When I met you I didn't know what to do...I was tired, I was hungry. I fight.

What a crazy couple of days.

Tsunami's, earthquakes, typhoons, my nervous breakdown. It's all happening!

The black cloud that has been looming for a few weeks now finally caught up with me on Friday and I crashed. Crashed and f*#king burned!
SO what do you when you tell your boss where to go and walk out of work in a tearful mess?
Well, first you get your big sister to drive you to her house to recover, then you go to your hairdresser and go back to BLONDE!
Yay! Ha. I like how it took this massive breakdown and fit to convince me that I really needed to return to blonde. I've missed it. It's more golden and copper-ish than I prefer but it's a good start considering how dark my hair was.

I pulled myself together enough to go see Carly and Maggie's exhibition in Newtown and it was a fun night. Mainly because Guy was there and he's my favourite =]
He keeps me sane.
Oh and Trent and Dubsy were there, too. That was fun and awkward. All I needed was for Scott to show up and my night really would have been complete.

I'm feeling much better now. I just needed to get everything off my chest. Im not completely overjoyed at life yet, but who could be with all these deadlines? Ugh.
It's getting better, though =]

In happy news, my LV bag arrives next week. Hooray. Finally!

What else? Softball is cancelled for the week (I think it's due to school holidays?) so I have saturday off. Definitely required. I plan on doing a whole bunch of nothing. Hopefully it will be hot and sunny so I can hang out at the beach.

Other than that...everything is the same. I'm borrowing the external flash tomorrow from uni before my Dad buys it for me, just to make sure it's the one I want. I'm excited. I'll post my experimentations.
I also need to post Meghans birthday card and gift. Tsk tsk...worst friend ever.

I'm going out with Zach on friday night. I'm excited. We haven't had a night out in months. It's always fun going out with him because we like the same guys. It gets intense heh heh.

I'm going. I need to do some work. And listen to more of this Pete Yorn & Scarlett Johansson collaboration. I like it. Weird.

changed my mind again

"In physics, tension is the magnitude of the pulling force exerted by a string, cable, chain, or similar object on another object. It is the opposite of compression."

These (or better versions of these when I reshoot) will accompany the backburning video I have made for my extension exhibition.
Plus an image of the string as an object in the lighting studio. The string is actually strips of the family documents torn up and tied together.
Yay for finally getting somewhere.

website

Well, another blog really...but it will serve as a website for my "real" photography work during the degree show at the end of the year.

http://ashleycollisphotography.blogspot.com/

Enjoy. More to be added there soon!

dear blogger,

Why are you doing everything twice?

Grrrr.

In the meantime, Carly is here so yay!
Gossip time.

2009 Degree Show Catalogue cover ideas

Sad face

This time last year I was in New York.
I miss it. A lot.
I miss the smells and the sights and the people.





I miss my favourite twin, too.

February cannot come quick enough!!

Feel Good Drag

My computer is taking way too long to copy the photos I took for my major and extension.
So while I wait I'm going through photos on my hard drive. In doing so I found this photo of my friend Brad, who I'm hanging out with tomorrow night. He lives in the nicest house I've ever seen in Vauclouse, and he has a family I would be happy to have adopt me.



We met at Good Vibrations 2007 and we've remained really good friends despite the fact that he used one of the cheesiest pick up lines ever on me.
Brad: "Do I look hot?"
Me: "Sure"
Brad: "Hot enough to make out with?"
Me: "I guess so"
BAM!

Hahaha. In his defense, it worked. Ha. In my defense...who would say no?

We have a game night once a month, and tomorrow night it's Scrabble. He's gping to lose.

Just sayin'!

Why can't I be in New York now?

Printed Matter, Inc. presents The NY Art Book Fair, October 2-4 at P.S.1 Contemporary Art Center

Next week, Printed Matter, Inc. and The NY Art Book Fair take over all three floors of P.S.1 to present 205 international presses, booksellers, antiquarians, museums, galleries, and artists from twenty-one countries, showing the very best in contemporary art publishing. More than sixty new exhibitors join this year's event. The Fair opens from 6-8pm on Thursday, October 1, and runs from October 2 through 4th at P.S.1. Entrance to the Fair is FREE.

So unfair.

Read more about it here: http://www.e-flux.com/shows/view/7223

Reason #458898 I'm a spoilt brat

So..my good friend Guy and I have matching backpacks (he got his first, I copied like the sheep I am) and I use mine on days I'm going to uni & the gym.
Anyway, both my parents hate the backpack, especially my Mum who doesn't think it is very lady-like. But yesterday my Dad made it clear just how much he hates it too, putting me in the same category as the girls I play softball with! (I'm tyring to keep this blog PG and friendly so I won't type the names he used). I didn't realise he hated it that much...it's just a backpack.

To cut a long, boring story short...he's decided to buy me a proper bag for the gym & uni days, and so tomorrow he's taking me to Louis Vuitton. Yay.

Guy, I know you'll send me a msg upon readng this to tell me how much you hate me. I'm prepared for it this time =]

In other news, I did a lot of photos over the past few days. I'll post some later.

I still need to do the photos for the Degree Show catalogue cover using the Alphaghetti. The scrabble one was fun, heh heh.

I'll be back soon.

Individual tutorials.

Just had my meeting with my academic advisor about my major work.

She loves it so that makes me very happy.
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Well, for this project at least.

I still need to worry about my extension exhibition project which is practically non existent.

Sigh.

So much to do and so little time.

I also need an external flash. Where is my nearest money tree?

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Thoughts and such.

I've been in a bit of a rut, lately.
I'll have days where everything is fine and dandy, and then I'll just flip to the extreme opposite where I feel like I can't cope with anything.
It's not fun.

I think it's just stress from juggling uni, work and life. I know everyone else does this too, this great balancing act, but I guess up until now it's never really affected me this much.

I just want to feel completely happy again. I want to know that I have all these options and opportunities and that at the end of the day, I'm happy with myself and everything I've done.

I'll get there again. I know it.

In the meantime, memories of happy days will fuel me on.


It feels like a long time since I've smiled like this.

Grrrrant!

One of my absolutely best and closest friends in the world, Grant, helped me out with some photos at Kurnell National Park last week.
He's the best.
We get up to way too much mischief together but we wouldn't have it any other way!

I want one!

Stingray bike.

Now, please.

Sick.

I have a fever and I want to go home.

I do not want to be here to give a talk about "nomadic thought".

Bah.

Taryn Simon

Two weeks ago, I sat in on a lecture given by Taryn Simon about her latest body of work An American Index of the Hidden and Unfamiliar.
She gave a great talk in which she went through this series and her last one, The Innocents. I had never heard of Taryn Simon before this talk but I'm so glad I went and am now a huge fan.
Her latest work chronicls her travels to places the public is usually not granted permission to access.
Look her up if you don't know her already. She's amazing.

Oh, plus..she did a shoot for i.d. magazine when Trent Reznor was promoting the Nine Inch Nails album The Fragile. So not only did Taryn put herself in the photo, but she managed to have a full on makeout session with Trent, and that's the photo they ran for the issue.
Needless to say, she is my hero.
=]

I miss her.

In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye

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aka Eva and Franco Mattes or aka my new favourite artists.

I stumbled upon these brilliant people while looking at photos of the recent Prague Bienale and I can't get enough of them now.
They're kind of sick and twisted, but they also make a living out of playing with cartoon characters so I'm a fan.



Check out more of their work here if you like:
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Let's celebrate mediocrity!